Two lovers were talking….
He says you be yourself.
She says No I want to be for you.
That’s not possible it would be fake.
Why?
When you are yourself you will love me more, when you change for me you will hate me from somewhere inside.
When I miss something for you, when I sacrifice things for you, when I live for you that gives me extreme pleasure.
That’s what I mean fake!!
Why?
Because most sacred thing in this world is, being ‘oneself’ - living independently. Everyone’s ultimate search is that.
Even I am like that. Loving you, living for you, is that not my independence?
No that’s a rule you have it of your own. If that rule is mine I will become enemy for you, since it’s your own it seems to be a pleasure.
Forget it, see I have brought something for you which I cooked though I didn’t knew to cook but u like girls to cook and did you see this dress? I wear this as you like the colour!
Why you treat me like your boss?
If I do all this will I become your slave?
If not now, one day you will become.
How?
If I expect these things which you do willingly tomorrow when you don’t like, then I become an ordering boss and you will act as a slave.
My mom, grand ma, every woman is like this. When I design my life for you, there is extreme happiness in that.
Does this give you real happiness? If so also it’s not permanent. Even for your mom and grandma and anybody else it won’t be real or stable happiness. Love is not sacrifice or just filling up the gaps. That’s feeling and sharing. If you order your hands to tie my shoe lace, it won’t feel the pleasure of writing poems, drawing pictures or making sculptures. No need to slave your life and love me. Real love has another name as independence. It you are independent, you will have lot of love.
Don’t you want to be manly?
What is manly?
Ordering, dominating, egoistic, influencing, boldness, thinking that everything is below him.
Why can’t manly be loving, patient, obedient, kind?
No its wrong perception. Dissolving in love and romancing is not manly it would be like a cunning action if a man does.
Okay what is womanly?
I don’t know I didn’t develop my characters based upon my body parts.
You remember the day when I met you first in the beach where there was no one? Birds touching the waves, we were following the insects in the sand! I told my love then what you did?
I held your arms ran far for long time, laid in sand after tiring. We were buried in sand till moon was above our head.
At that time I didn’t feel I am manly. I felt the speed of crossing this world when you were holding my arms. You were like a bird measuring the sky with its feathers. Your self without womanliness was same as my self without manliness. Does a child think about sex? We are just two beings that are all. You will have any characters for me; I will have any characters for you. We are birds, flying in desired direction and back to home with love. I carry you in my thoughts, if I carry your body alone that will become a weight for me, it will spoil my love and closeness for you.
Which is greater love or independence?
We all are under control of love only, as like any other living being in this world. We all are ready to loose anything for love. But we can’t stand long in love without independence. When it comes to love or independence we can loose love.
That means all love has limitations? Even for the love which you have for me which I believe limitless?
There is nothing limitless here darling! We may not see the limitations standing in one direction but everything has limitations.
Even for independence right?
Yes. Unless it doesn’t affect you my independence is beautiful. So that’s the limit. When we celebrate other’s independence, ours is saved.
She hugs him tightly and gives him a very long kiss!!
